This is a guest post about falling in love written by Tribe Member and Self Love Alumni, Anni Hy.
Hi there. My name is Anni, though it wasn’t always… Anni was born out of a beautiful transformation, an unbecoming, if you will, but we’ll get to that.
Her story starts on this very website, two years ago.
It all started with Harry Potter…
April 26, 2018
My name is Julia and I’m hunting online for a clear photo of a Dark Mark. You know, the tattoo that Voldemort burns onto all of his followers in Harry Potter. It’s for my next tattoo.
I’ve been officially diagnosed as bipolar 1 with anxiety, among other things. For just over two years, I’ve been searching for the perfect representation of how my condition makes me feel.
Like I’m being forced into a role I didn’t want or ask for but was born into. That I don’t want to be defined by a diagnosis, but by my choices.
Five minutes into my search, I stumble upon a blog post entitled, “Why I got the Dark Mark Tattoo,” and I’m floored by how much this woman and I have in common.
Her article related so much to own life – depression, divorce, and of course, an obsession with Harry Potter.
A moment of courage
How many times do you see these notes at the bottom of an article:
“Hey, if this reached you or if you have any questions or comments reach out to me?”
And then think, “yeah, right”.
But, something was different this time…
I figure I have nothing to lose. I can’t sit here and not tell her how everything she’s said resonates deeply with me.
I start my email, “Not to be creepy…”
Yeah, TOTALLY not a weird way to start an email to someone you don’t know at all. ?
So, I cry while I write my little story, hit the send button, and figure that was that.
I just read your article and basically cried because of how much I relate….
… I’m sorry this is some lengthy random email from someone you don’t even know, half-way across the world – but it seriously hit home. And I’m so glad there’s another person who understands, who has made it through and chosen to act on the goodness rather than dwell on the bad, even though it exists for a purpose.
Julia Hy
Your words give me hope. Thank you.
But it wasn’t.
A spark of hope
Within a day, Taryn had written me back.
This person who understood core bits and pieces of me without having to know me previously at all, took the time and wrote back.
And then asked to Skype..
I’d never expected a stranger to show me the time of day in responding to some random email, let alone want to actually meet me to talk through everything we had in common, the good and the bad.
We talk about how we’ve both dealt with pain, finding coping mechanisms that helped us through dark times, and reminded us who we were in our hearts.
Getting back to Yoga
I’ve always had an on-again, off-again relationship with yoga, it was always Tarot that helped me sort out my mind.
Taryn is just starting her Remote Yogi Tribe but wasn’t using Tarot often or quite like I did. Before I know it, we’re both teaching each other more than we realize.
She quickly becomes a guiding light whenever I just needed to know someone understands.
Soon I’m not only staying on track with my yoga but all of a sudden, I have a whole tribe of people I can talk to, who understand me.
Finding Support
Month on month, the Tribe continues to grow. There are more women on our monthly calls, more programs and coaching being offered… but the one thing that never changes is Taryn’s continued support.
She is there when I realize:
- That my relationship isn’t healthy.
- I’m not the person everyone had been telling me I was my entire life.
- That it is time to transform, shaving my head. (so liberating!) and changing my name (Taryn becomes one of the first people to recognize me as Anni without question.)
Finally, after a hospitalization, Taryn is one of the first to support me in getting the help I need.
Embracing Self Love
Our story now rolls forward to February of this year and the first run of Taryn and Kelsey’s Self-Love Course.
I’m not normally one for self-help style books, courses, or anything of the sort. I fully believe they work, I just usually prefer more guidance than trusting myself to check in weekly.
But this… this is different.
For once, I can’t wait to get through each week’s material (I’d later go through the eight week program twice on my own with the materials I was able to download!)
I have never been so sure of myself or loved myself more than I do at this moment.
My room transforms from pristine white walls with a few pieces of art to being covered with clippings – like a 1950’s detective looking for a serial killer. Affirmations, a vision board, things to help my chakras, things that make me happy and smile, and everything I love about myself.
For the first time ever, a meditation breaks me down to the point where I’m sobbing.
While I don’t discount counseling and psychiatry (and have gone regularly for more than five years), this course is able to help me get through so many roadblocks I’d had in my head. The course did just as much, if not more, for me in eight weeks than those five years had.
Self love changed everything for me.
Life’s a Rollercoaster
My journey with Taryn has been a roller coaster, and most likely will continue to be because that’s life. But I’m glad to have her with me. To have a support base that fits in the palm of my hand and goes wherever I go.
And to know that I am never alone.
After all –
“I’m on a roller coaster that only goes up, my friend.”
John Green
Are you ready to transform?
Our Soul Sister’s Guide to Self Love launches this Friday! You can be a part of the transformative sisterhood right now.
*cues the confetti cannons*
If you’re looking to:
- Stop self-sabotaging and feel truly worthy of your happiness.
- Have better conversations with yourself.
- No longer put everyone’s needs before your own.
- Receive without feeling any guilt about it.
- Work through your shame monsters.
- Appreciate your body, understanding how to nurture her.
- Embrace the sexual goddess within you.
- Bond with other women who are transforming alongside you.
Stop waiting! Over the next eight weeks, you can completely shift your life. What would be different with just 5% more self love?!
For just $333, you get LIFETIME access to the course, with a weekly video lesson, powerful workbook and journal exercises, and incredible meditations (honestly, they’ll blow you mind).
“Your week 3 meditation has me feeling so powerful, yet so calm and peaceful it is unbelievable. Sound healing is…just wow girl.”
Anni Hy
OH WAIT! Did you miss our bonus announcements? We want to celebrate your commitment to invest in yourself this summer. When you buy in full, you can select one of the following:
- Gift the course to a friend (yep, they get the whole course for free)
- Receive a private coaching sessions
- Grab an annual membership of the Remote Yogi Tribe (the yoga membership that helped Anni)
It’s YOUR turn
So, what’s stopping you? Fear? The guilt of investing in yourself? Because you’re not sure if you’ll see the results?
I can guarantee you this – if you can look fear in the eyes and jump in anyways, you’re always taking in amazing step forward on, committing to YOU first.
Psstt… can’t commit to the full price? Payment plans are available.
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You are worthy of ALL!
